craving for some ice-cream now!! lol.. yum yum.. =P

hmm.. it looks like i have suspected case of H1N1. =X i think so.. not sure.. but no fever.. just flu.. and it keeps running.. tap open.. lol..

oh.. and my mum was so nice!! i told her i wanted to put that jewel thingy on my phone.. at first she said dont want.. but yesterday she bought for me!! ^.^ star one.. is on my phone now.. and i love it!! but it looks weird.. lol..

SPDP is out again!! registered hairstylist and pop vocal.. haha!! can learn to sing le!! ^.^ maybe i want to register for the album one also.. =P can try recording an album leh..

xoxo,
you know you love me

i so so so feel like chatting to yt, leen and nise man!! like now!! together in one msn chatbox.. and talk about someone!! but yt and leen not online!! >.<

so anyway.. reached home early today.. because only 2 hour lesson.. nano i think dont have since tomorrow is site visit.. going to IBN tomorrow!!! institute of bioengineering and nanotechnology.. i heard that place is nice!! and i love bio alot.. so maybe it will be super fun tomorrow.. cannot wait!! ^.^ then actually at 2 stil got one more lesson.. but because i forgot to print my tutorial.. i did not go.. =P

sapphire is not eating her food again.. =( she kept looking for me though.. maybe she know that i wont scold or beat her when she did not eat.. haha!! =P but she is still cute..

oh ya.. yesterday.. was super tired until i overslept on the train was because i only slept for 1 hour.. lol.. 1 HOUR!! i cannot believed it too!! was watching youtube that have lollipop and fan fan until i realised it was 5 plus.. lol.. so sleep only 1 hour.. but still.. I HATE THAT STRANGER!!! =P

i am still in love with fan fan song!! haha.. after lesson yesterday.. or maybe in between.. kept talking to yue siang about me looking like fan fan and fan fan's new song very nice.. then he kept making fun of me.. lol.. saying 范范 as fan-fan.. and that he is 仔仔 if i am 范范.. lol.. he saying that because i am not fan fan la.. purposely de.. but really i love it when people say that i look like fan fan.. she is so talented and pretty!! ^.^

xoxo,
you know you love me

seriously.. what is wrong with stangers today!! when i fall no one help.. on the train sleeping can get asked to waked up!! to ask this.. "which stop are you alighting?" =.=

firstly, to that stranger who woke me up in the train on the way back home.. do i even know you??? why are you asking me what stop i am alighting? and why are you telling me that i am at tampines?? of course i know i am at tampines!! is so obvious!! mrt station got write the name of the place!! =.="

stupid guy.. zzz.. and did i say? that guy just look like the person who molested me in the lift of my old house!!!! idoit!!

so ya.. all because of that stupid stranger.. left the train straightaway when actually i wanted to sit from pasir ris then back to tanah merah!! took bus from there.. and is damn irritating la!! keep scolding him in my mind.. zzz.. stupid sia!!

xoxo,
you know you love me

went ION today!! haha.. went there to eat japanese food.. daddy treat us.. because he won 4D last week.. =P food was ok.. eat until very xin ku.. sudden pain at my chest area again.. but now better le..

daddy went off to watch liverpool match at national stadium.. he got free tickets to watch from his friend!! so good la!! then me, sis and mummy continue eating.. then went shopping!! bought 1 shirt.. 2 pairs of shoes.. ribbon hair pin, earrings and necklace.. nice nice.. then took bus home.. was talking about facebook on the bus with my mum and sis.. about the ugly photos i had that was taken at 6/5 bbq!! >.< and about people saying me getting prettier.. =P lol.. oh and me being a girly girl because of the hair pin i bought which i straight away used it.. =P quite nice.. got black and white. using the white one. and is still on my hair now.. i loved it!! ^.^

anyway.. i need to do my reports now.. list as follows again!! using the same list!!

autoclave research and put in ppt
type out POPRII results for sarah
PMAII report
APNANO report
MC&FA report
BIOM report
CPSTEC report
POPRII report
BIOM data sheet
POPRII research on thermoforming(Pressure Forming)
type CP4070 density for hamizan
nano journal
BIOM research on endoscopes
photo copy nano results for sarah

xoxo,
you know you love me

added another new song by fan fan to my playlist.. and to tell you the truth.. after hearing this song for so many times.. i actually CRIED!! i did not know why.. is it because i think about the past?? was reading the lyrics from my fan fan album.. i think is really because of the past.. not sure.. maybe i should say is a mixture of the past and now.. yt and leen know about it.. ^.^ thx again you 2 for today.. ^.^ thx for making me be just like what i should be.. being happy.. =P since you 2 know what made the recent me change so much.. the mood and everything.. ^.^ you 2 are the best!!



hmm.. should not have think about the past!! forgive and forget!! yeah!! thats what i gonna do!! =P forget everything about them.. forgive myself for doing that to make me so pissed up about them.. =P

(yup.. you are not seeing the time wrongly.. is now 5:39 and i am still awake!! =P havent sleep yet.. going to sleep now.. by the time i press the publish post button it will be 6:17.. =P)

xoxo,
you know you love me

well.. actually today got KHS 6/5 k box gathering.. but cancelled yesterday.. maybe because not many people want to sing..

so went to far east plaza to meet melly to collect lollipop album.. did not know need to collect so many things la!! i helped linda, vanessa and samantha to collect.. so altogether (including mine) got 9 albums!!! picture exclude my 2 albums.. all are for friends..

xoxo,
you know you love me

watching death note 2 dvd now.. =P borrowed from school..

i realised now i am super addicted to shows that are related to investigations like CSI and death note.. kept watching such shows this few days.. and am still loving it!! =P shall watch more of this type.. =P

xoxo,
you know you love me

小綺姐姐：姐姐，和你相認時間也不算短咯~~~姐姐你真的很棒，跳舞，唱歌，作圖都很棒~~~姐姐你還當選過王子的公主誒~~~好羡慕姐姐你哦~~~我們都覺得姐姐你有當明星的潛質哦~~~姐姐要加油啦！！！有一個明星的姐姐好棒哦！！姐姐，你答應給我簽名照的哦~~~當明星以後不要忘記我這個妹妹哦~~~

a friend of mine from woo wrote this to me.. so sweet of her.. super touching too.. haha.. ^.^ in woo.. i always treat her as my online sister.. real life i only have 1.. and that is denise.. and most of my secrets and any problems.. i will ask help from those people in woo.. because they know me very well and all.. and they are the first few to know that i wanted to become a star.. and thanks to them.. i am really thinking of becoming one!! so hopefully my dream will come true.. ^.^

xoxo,
you know you love me

wow.. i was looking at facebook.. hwee ying's facebook by the way.. when i say this 2 pic.. and i completely dont know that i even took that pic before!! like since when i took it.. then i remembered is actually PRSS alumini dinner at ronald at parkway.. was super long ago la!!!




ah.. those were the days!!! ^.^ sure miss that..

xoxo,
you know you love me

woohoo!! just bought fan fan's new album on the way home!! ^.^ listening it now.. and i love it!! her song rocks!! ^.^

now that got people say i look like her.. am so so so happy!! she can sing so well!! lucky me that i can look like her..

xoxo,
you know you love me

i am so so so in love with fan fan's new song!! 2 of them.. super nice!!



i so so so want to buy her album now!!! see when i free go buy.. ^.^

xoxo,
you know you love me

wondering how people will feel if they were me..

if you were me.. hanging out with friends that are younger than me.. mostly between age 13-16.. and your mum tells you not to see them ever again.. including contacting you and going to their house.. and also meeting them.. how would you feel??

have been thinking through if i did the right thing.. whether listening to my mum is the right thing to do.. because i just dont feel like myself right now..

anyway saturday primary school gathering.. i enjoyed that.. thanks all of you (nicholas, min zhui, yong han, joel, jasmine, linus, bryan, yi an and shiau wei) for letting me be myself back again!! not being quiet and also being happy the whole day.. thank you all!! ^.^ photo taking session was super funny too!! hope to have more outings and gatherings in the future with all of you!! cassandra loves KHS year 2001 class 6/5!! will miss those days in KHS with all of you!! ^.^

xoxo,
you know you love me

continuous from last time..

autoclave research and put in ppt
type out POPRII results for sarah
PMAII report
APNANO report
MC&FA report
BIOM report
CPSTEC report
POPRII report
POPRII research on thermoforming(Pressure Forming)
type CP4070 density for hamizan
nano journal
BIOM research on endoscopes

xoxo,
you know you love me

added another song to my playlist.. ^.^ lyrics here..

xoxo,
you know you love me

have been playing sims 3 and dragonica for the past few days.. did not do anything much.. went for MC&FA tutorial then skipped POPRII lecture.. was whole day at home.. mummy said if want to go then she bring me go.. if not she can rest.. so decided not to go.. haha.. =P first time skipped lesson though.. =P usually if i skipped is because i was too late to go..

tomorrow = love!! KHS 6/5 gathering tomorrow!!! ^.^V i love 6/5!!

xoxo,
you know you love me

always wanted to put this pic up for so long kept forgetting!! lol.. me and joycelin.. the day before my june holidays started.. k box that day the k box staff took the picture.. i kinda like it.. ^.^ am going to frame that photo up.. but no photo frame.. those that i have all spoilt!! >.< this was scanned just now.. =P

anyway.. i realised alot of people say i look like fan fan (范瑋琪).. and got people say i look like someone from 命中.. but i dont know who.. and just now i asked my sister if she find that i look like fan fan or not.. was watching 摸范棒棒堂 at that time.. she told me to take out my spec.. so i took out.. then she say abit look like.. i was like huh?? like how.. but did not really asked her.. then she suddenly said i got dark eye rings!!! >.< i know i have.. which i kinda hate it!! and she said that fan fan fairer and darker abit.. which is true la.. but i trying to prevent myself from being under the sun too long.. that explains why i havent been swimming this 1-2 years too.. =P

sister is playing sims 3 now!! and i so want to try it out.. looks so cool!!! maybe playing dragonica with her later.. but have school tomorrow and my mum wants me to sleep now.. so i really dont know.. but at least got long break tomorrow.. =P

xoxo,
you know you love me

sometimes i wonder.. everything i do.. anyone got think first? what i say may not be what i meant. but why do some people think that i meant it the other way?? does that mean when speaking i must get to the point??

but this is how i speak.. how i talk.. then why be friends with me when some people dont understand what i mean?? i admit sometimes or should i say most of the time.. i always say bad things.. but that is just one moment thing.. i dont remember bad things at all.. especially things like me scolding someone or anything.. all those are just said at that moment.. and gone in just a second or two.. but some people may still just want to continue the arguement.. which i dont know why..

so is kinda weird.. in fact the person who know me the best.. actually only know me for like last than 1 year.. about 3-4 months in fact.. excluding denise though.. because i kept telling her what i mean and say when she ask..

people like yt, pg, joey, leen, fz.. i did not say much things to them.. they know how i feel.. and they know what i mean.. but why cant you?? i seriously think.. do you really know what i am saying?? do you really know who am i?? do you really know what kind of person i am?? i dont have a clue..

i am not aiming at anyone.. so dont anyhow guess who i am saying. i wont be naming who too.. there is a number of people i am talking about.. about 2-3..

xoxo,
you know you love me

5 assignments completed in 3 and a half hours!! sweet!! ^.^ more reports to go!!

xoxo,
you know you love me

am now continuing the list of things to do.. and am doing them all now!! so try not disturb me bah..

autoclave research and put in ppt
type out POPRII results for sarah
PMAII report
APNANO report
MC&FA report
BIOM report
CPSTEC report
POPRII report
POPRII research on thermoforming(Pressure Forming)
type CP4070 density for hamizan
nano journal

xoxo,
you know you love me

i seriously dont know what my mum is trying to say!! one moment she told me not to keep in touch with denise and the rest of them and also not to go to her house.. and this few days.. including today!! she kept saying how close my grandmother house and her house is. and also how to walk there from tampines east cc!! does she mean now i can go to her house anytime?? i seriously dont know..

and that stupid you who quarreled with me on facebook today.. yes you!! think first bah.. since what i said is what i meant!! no wonder your sister hate you.. because now i am beginning to hate you too!!!

xoxo,
you know you love me

happened today...

went to raffles city.. to get my light stick.. a very nice person help me collect from hong kong!! thank you so much!! ^.^ then went to kino to buy magazine.. at the same time.. went to check out my cuzzie's book she released!! only left 2.. "Scientifically Slim".. go check it out and help me support her.. ^.^ is all about weight loss.. for more information click here..

dancing at toa payoh.. was super confused when at there.. library have one.. and toa payoh central cc have one.. and me and my mum kept thinking which one is the correct one!! then realised is actually inside the cc.. then it was super hot.. and i realised that the switch was not even on!! how pathetic!!

anyway denise's msg at 11pm was super shocking.. i have no idea what she is saying.. well just have to wait for her reply then!!

xoxo,
you know you love me

so far.. 6 MST papers.. returned back 4 le.. and surprisingly... i actually passed POPRII & MC&FA!! in my mind i was "OMG!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!" but come to think of it.. its kinda nice.. ^.^ and both papers i just got back today!! so looks like it is a good day for me today.. ^.^

BIOM 13/50 (dont ask.. i expected worst than this though..)
PM&AII 42/100 (expected worst too..)
POPRII 54/100 (yeah!! haha.. i actually really expected that i failed this!! and is that type of 30+/100 type of fail)
MC&FA 51.5/100 (well.. expected 20-30/100.. so super happy about this.. ^.^)

and my teacher actually said that my expectation was super low.. which is true.. because i kinda screw up lots of my papers in the past.. and first time i found that actually really.. studying really do help!! same for my Ns & Os.. and now poly.. is all the same.. study really helps alot. so.. STUDY WHEN COMES TO SCHOOLING AND EXAMS.. IT DO HELP!!

and i have decided.. when it comes to helping people.. i only help those that really in need.. and dont anyhow help unneccessary.. when i actually am the person who get cheated easily and helping for no reason.. and also being used by someone.. so yeah.. I DONT WANT TO GET CHEATED ON ANYMORE!!!

cherish friends huh? my mum said to me that i have to cherish my friends & family.. means i actually can still see them.. =P

xoxo,
you know you love me

am currently in school now.. doing a list of things i have to do..

autoclave research and put in ppt
type out POPRII results for sarah
PMAII report
APNANO report
MC&FA report
BIOM report
CPSTEC report
POPRII report
POPRII research on thermoforming(Pressure Forming
type CP4070 density for hamizan
nano journal

trying to complete all by today or this week..

xoxo,
you know you love me

hey girl cant you see..
when you are around i am just not me..
is not that i hate you or anything..
is just that i have no idea why are you telling me all those things..
all the things that are not supposed to be told..
or even not suppose to tell me at all..
because i think that you telling me that..
is USELESS!!
you told the wrong person!!
because i have nothing to do with it..
and that when i am around you..
only have 1 word..
that is STRESS
think about it..
and also think first before telling me things..
because everytime you tell me things that i should not know..
my very first reaction is =.=
so think before you speak..
i hate people who dont think first before speaking!!
i am a person who say things that are not clear at all..
so think carefully before saying or commenting on me!!!
i know what i am saying!!
and i meant what i am saying!!
so please just listen to me..
think before speaking!!

only 1 person know who i am talking about..
and that only person is denise..
and thats because i love her..
my sister forever!! ^.^

denise.. sorry for not asking permission before going into your room that day when you are around.. i seriously dont know that you dont like that.. i will try find time to meet you de.. I PROMISE!!

xoxo,
you know you love me

Cassandra Ong Qi Min is having chest pains..
ever since from friday..
after leaving that house..
until now..
very pain..
cannot breathe..
its like me after running..
very very pain..
what exactly is wrong?
i dunno!!
too nervous that caused my heart to beat too fast?
or what?
i dont have a single clue!!

xoxo,
you know you love me

last paper!! over!! woohoo!! =P

straight away after the paper.. went to tampines.. bought lollipop for denise at 7-11.. then went to tm.. all the shops not open yet.. except NTUC.. so went there.. buy green tea, chocolate and blu-tac.. i can actually walk inside NTUC for more than half an hour la!! haha.. interesting.. then went to take bus to denise's house.. well.. my last time going there.. so i treasured the moment there alot!!

went there.. only got me and derrick in the house.. he sleeping. then i play L4D.. played finish then see him play wolf team.. then just nice yt, leen, joey, fz and sherry (new person i know.. haha.. but sad only know 1 day then cannot see every again..) came.. talked with them.. see win and yt play L4D expert.. very funny la they play.. LOL.. then went to eat chicken rice with them.. but first pass win the photos his mother want.. then went to eat..

at the coffee shop. win keep making me laugh!! then in the end i cannot eat finish!! then suddenly yt started tou pai us eating.. win joined him.. i took some also.. and very nice de i take. =P







then walk back to their house downstairs.. me, fz and joey kept looking at their block.. thinking which one is win's house.. so called win then he waved to us.. he still say "hello to the lady in pink!!" to me by phone and shouted from the window.. ear super pain la!! then we walked to the bus stop.. then pg sms-ed me.. saying goodbye to us.. but since is my last day i going there.. so went to win's house again.. talked to pg secretly in nise's room.. gave her the stuffed flower that used to be mine from derrick.. and the letter i wanted to give to derrick.. while talking to her i cried sia!! i cannot bear to leave all of them.. they are my friends!! and forever my friends!! why my mum just cant let me go out with people younger than me?? younger than me does not mean they are childish!! and this also does not mean that they made me childish too!!! T.T first time cried because of friends.. first time losing friends because they are younger than me.. but why?? why cant i just go out with them?? why does my mum have to prevent me from doing all those things?? =( only yt and pg know why i cried.. before leaving derrick gave me bubble gum.. ^.^ at 6:30pm went down with pg... she followed me to the bus stop.. then just nice bus 292 come.. on the bus nise called me.. then say that she saw me and pg.. she was at the over head bridge there.. lost the very last chance to see her.. T.T

on the bus.. sms-ed pg.. kept talking to her.. then she told me to cheer up.. ^-^ and also to try persuade my mum to let me go out with them again during any of their birthdays... took 10 back home.. then my mum sms-ed me say she did not cook.. waited for her opp my house.. she went to buy dinner at hong kong restaurant.. and went to cold storage.. then i bring sapphire back home..

i will always miss you guys.. you guys will always be my friend!! hope that i can see all of you again.. but i doubt i can.. so do take care of all of yourself.. yt, leen, pg, joey, yy, rick, win, nise, fz, sherry.. till we meet again.. GOOD BYE!! i will never forget you all!!

P.S: nise.. i will try my best to persuade my mum to allow me to go meet up with you and celebrate with you your birthday.. so do wait for my reply.. i love you!!!! ♥

xoxo,
you know you love me

another 2 paper down for today and yesterday!! one more to go!!! ^.^V

tomorrow is the day!! am going to say everything out!! by letter of course.. how can i speak to him directly right?? =P here goes nothing!!

once tomorrow goes i wont be going to that house and seeing them anymore!! except for denise though. i want to see her again and again and again!!

xoxo,
you know you love me